Those minor special things in between.

Hello . So today's entry is nothing special actually hahah . But a few days before , to be exact  the 28th of july 2014 , marks the end of the fasting month and the start of Eid mubarak !! So in conjunction of Hari Raya, I , Muhammad Awalludin , ask for forgiveness to those who reading this post . Please do forgive my mistakes , my wrongdoings whether it is on my own will , or accidental . Haha , also dont forget to invite me to your house eh ? Later on we can strengthen our Silaturahim :) Hehe Okay  , thats it for todays entry :D

.......sorry

Sorry ..
Sometimes this word won't change a thing.
For  some situations ... this word meant nothing .
But for me .. I'm saying sorry in full of regret.
I'm sorry for taking you so lightly .
I'm sorry for not being there for you.
I'm sorry for those words i'd said to you
I'm sorry for those harsh moments i've put you through..
I'm sorry for not being the one you needed the most .
I'm sorry .. for not being truthfull
I'm sorry..... for those imperfections of me that you didn't like..
I'm really .. really sorry .
But the word alone isn't enough isn't it ??
I thought that we would last a single year ...
and so i was wrong...
Even no matter how i denies it .. it is clearly my fault ...
For everything ...
So its your birthday soon right?
i thought of giving you something but .. in this kind of situation .. the idea of it
Might not work...
i.. really dont know what to do now...
However if you are reading this post...
i was wondering ... will you be mine again ??
Tbh
it really hurts you know ... trying to accept the fact that you left me .
i hope .. you don't feel offended by this post.
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I'm out of words .. that's the end

Sundays .... f**k

Assalamualaikum , and peace unto you .
Hi , it's been a while since my last post .  Yeah , it can't be helped but . it is the school holidays after all .  I 'd been to a few places in Malaysia ... And somehow ... I was able to enjoy myself . *I thought i'm an extrovert -.-. But anyway .... As usual in my social life ... nothing special . I stopped myself from flirting coz' I know i don't easily approach to people.. and it's been months since i contact my ex.... I wonder how she's been doing . I guess she's fine alright . There's no need to worry about her . She could take care of herself .... yeah.  Damn ... how much i missed her... Well , she might be with someone else by now . who knows ? And up until now . I still don't have any clue on why did she break-up with me ... Away from that topic .. next year .. I will be taking SPM + attend to school on sundays .... like seriously ??? Sundays ?  Geez ... Sundays were the time that we students to rest&relax -.- Not attend to school -.- .... hmm so much disappointments in my short life .. well that's it for this post .
More posts coming soon :) #EOE
*damn it -.- my english is getting even worse.....i guess i should start to be more focus on my studies .

A letter to you .

If you listen to this song carefully . You will realise how I felt these days ... Big thank you to Tom Odell

Everyday . i wished that a text came from you . I really do . I wanted to text you first but .... I'm sure that you already forgot me .. I saw your sweet smile last week . even though its just for a blink of an eye .. That smile of yours just made my heart flutters .. It really made my day . Although it is not me who make you smile but i still adore it . But . there is a question that run inside my head everytime i think about you ... Why did you do that to me . You already know what i've been through . but you willingly walk away from me . I thought i can rely on your promises . But you just shred my heart to pieces . And now you're craving on your crush attention . then what about me ? It was you who said that i deserve better ... but you did the same like the others . Why ... Then i'm stuck here alone not knowing what to do anymore . I found myself clueless ... I cried .. and yes it is about you because i love you too damn  much . But .... YOU DONT FCKING CARE AT ALL .... That is the reality and no matter how many times i would beg for you to be back with me .... I'm sure it wont change a single thing by now . So thanks for all the bittersweet moments that i've been through with you . Lots of Love .. your Ex.









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Deep Thoughts

Hello . and a veryyyyyyyyy good day to you guys . I know . it's been a very long time since the last entry . So many things had happen and soo many things to share . Geez it would be convinient if i have a smartphone and a keek account . hahaha . You see the girl below this entry ??? i broke up with her . AGAIN . but this time its her decision . Heartbreaking but its over though . at that time i just felt the worst feeling ever . i became totally clueless at almost everything in my life . its almost like her words cast a deep black wound inside my heart . and bit by bit it devours my soul . *WAH POETIC SIA . hhe . anyway .. although she told me to forget almost everything about me and her . i just really cant do so . i really didn't know why ... but still i'm still standing strong and keep on running babeyh ! I love her . I really do ,,,If i still can , i would wait for her for a thousand years if it's the last thing i do . So that's all for today . have anice day guys . Assalamualaikum to you :) peace






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The feelings inside

Why did I left you ? Why am i the one who deserted you ?


You see , my life is not as good as you. Stress ? Yeah , i'm sure that's one of the reasons . Maybe deep down in your heart , you really really hate me for all the things i've done to you .  i just hope that you too , realise your wrongdoings . I might not be perfect for you , but i tried to be my very best , only for you . I will always remember the memories with you . If you're reading this , i really hope that you keep me safely in your heart . So that you will remember this guy who really love you with all his heart . I may no longer be there for you anymore or even talk to you , but trust my words . i still love you . :')

Tired

Sekarang dah dekat pukul 4:40 -.- duhhai . masa yang terbaik untuk bersahur . hahaha . puasa dah dekat kan ?? Lebih kurang tinggal 38 hari lagi . yezza . lol then RAYA ! haha ! aku suka . sangat sangat suka . sebab time raya tu . hari lahir aku dalam lingkungan masa raya jugak .wakakakaka . untungg untung . tapi penat toqq . madah jadi nocturnal jek -.- pastu kurang tido . makkk aihh . PENAT SIAAA. duhhai . eh jap . aku sepatutnya aku tido sekarang . lol . k ahh aku sangat rindu orang kat BP ni . siala .. nak balik sane siaa . .... apepun lagi bagus tido je ah . k assalamualaikum -.-